Saturday, April 12, 2008

I Haven't Totally Disappeared!

Yes, I know I have not been blogging at all lately, mainly because I have been feeling quite conflicted. I have made my blog here a happy space, full of pictures of the cutest kids ever and the comings and goings of an everyday family. My "real" writing, which I have been doing more of lately, has been squirreled away in various Word documents, not being given a chance to see the light of day for fear of ruining the "happy, happy, joy, joy" world here in Blog-land. The truth of the matter is, while the record of our lives is fun and important to document, I have some strong opinions and thoughts on MANY subjects (yes, shocking, I know! ;O) ) and a desire to write something more than just fluff.

My first thought was a separate blog, a different home for the more controversial blog posts, but that felt dishonest and really, who am I kidding? I have issues updating one blog, nevermind two! So, I have decided that, if this is truly my blog, then I should write about what I want to, and readers can read, or not, as they so desire! Anyway, that is where I am today, and the path I see my Journey taking, at this point, knowing it can change at ANY time!!

Long ago (well, not THAT long ago...around the time we found out we were expecting Benjamin and 30 days later I found out I was losing my job of 10 years!) I figured out that we can decide where we are going and plan our lives, but so often, God decides He has something different/new/better for us and changes our direction, often radically! After a number of life changes I would have never planned on making had you asked me even 6 years ago, like homeschooling and staying at home ALL DAY with my kids to name just two, I can truly say that they are SO the right decisions for me, and I am SO grateful that I took the paths that have opened to me, once I got through arguing with God about what MY plans were and how this was NOT going to work! I plan on looking at my blog like that - I'll start with my plan and see where it leads....

Now, for the "fluff" portion of our broadcast...

Some obligatory adorable kid pictures,courtesy of Grandma. I haven't been clicking much lately..another thing I need to get back in the swing of!!!


When did Thomas get SO big???!!!


Sweet, smiley baby girl!!

Benjamin has the most intense, soul-filled eyes I've ever seen!
Can you say "understatement?"

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

I've missed your writing - and look forward to whatever you choose to write about - precious children, or whatever.

I love you,
Mom

Michelle said...

haha! I, too, have 3 boys, and my middle son has that same shirt.

When we put it on him and we're going in public, my husband always questions why I fix my hair or put makeup on, because we're allowed to "look" exhausted! What he doesn't understand is that I still look exhausted, whether I fix my hair or not, because I really am!

You have beautiful children!

Anonymous said...

I can't believe how big all your kids have gotten. You have a great family there. I'm so proud of you.

Love you all

Connie